visions that you don't want to see?
like the Tsunami i mentioned in that other post?

a few days ago i was thinking about what has happened, about the devastation of the land, the people, the civilization, and i was wondering why it happened to *those* people. i mean, right-wing X-tians might be inclined to credit the annihilation to their lack of faith in Jesus, as you know many people think that all bad things happen when God becomes angry and punishes the human race...but still i ponder, why the Indonesians and Indians? back to the vision:

so while i was pondering this disaster, i found myself imagining what it would be like to be a mother standing on the beach trying to save her two children. i saw my 1-year old daughter being swept away into the surf, and i saw my 5 year old son standing on the shore about to be hit by the next thundering wave. i felt my heart tear as i tried to find a way to save them both--the baby was being carried further and further away from me but i could see that she was still alive. my son was crying out to me, screaming in terror. I knew that there was no way I could scoop them both up and just stood there helpless and in agony. this scenario ripped right through me and i had to shut it off as if it were just a TV show. i still feel that this actually happened to me, and i couldn't figure out where the vision came from and why it was downloaded to me. then the other day, i was checking my Yahoo mail and saw a news headline that said "Mother forced to choose between sons during deadly Tsunami". I didn't open the article. i couldn't bear to read it.

I have also had dramatic and dark visions during tarot readings, and it has been a challenge to explain what i see without scaring the shit out of the person i'm reading for. the more shallow side of this is when i can see that the person's marriage isn't going to last, and they want so badly to hear that they will be together forever. i don't know why people torture themselves like that. the moment of now is where the love is, where awareness electrifies our sense of duty to the future, and yet people shackle that future with expectations. i hope to inspire liberation (Spectral Tone) from attachments that prevent the future from manifesting through divine will.

m7